I just got a letter through the post … my next appointment at the Gender Identity Clinic !!!! YAYYYYYY !!!!
And when I picked the letter up off the mat I nearly SCREEEEAMED out loud !!… I knew straight away what it was because I could see through the window of the envelope who it was addressed to …
2nd October, that’s the end of next week! … OMG OMG OMG … lol
It also happens to be the day after I go to the hospital to have my varicose vein treatment, Clarivein, and that is something of a concern, so I’ve left a message for the service manager at the gender clinic to call me as , after an hours drive to get there, I’m a little concerned that I might be in too much pain or discomfort to be able to easily walk from the nearest car park and under the circumstances it would be useful to have dispensation to use the Disabled parking spaces they have on site.
I also need to really knuckle down and ensure that I DO make my first solo excursion down town before then … more than one if I can !
I’m still all-a-flutter inside. 🙂
I won’t be seeing the same psychiatrist I saw for my first appointment, which is a little annoying as I have to start building a new relationship, but at least this will be the one who I will hopefully be seeing from now on so that’s a good thing.
It would be nice if my new, more androgynous, glasses arrived before I go, and I’d love to be able to get my hair done specially, but that’s not really going to be possible unless I get it done in the afternoon after I’ve had my leg treatment, but it never looks quite the same the next morning. 😦
In the meantime I’m going to take extra care of myself, (attack my very overdue nails, new razor blades, extra conditioner, extra moisturiser), and then on the day itself make sure I use another new set of razor blades. It’s very unlikely I’ll have time to do my nails on the morning of the appointment, so I may have to just balls it out and say to wifey that I’m doing them the night before and she’ll just have to accept it.
I’ll get all my clothes ready on a hanger and secrete them the day before to save on time. I’m going to put on the very best of what little wardrobe I have, and I may ask for opinions from you all in further blog posts beforehand.
I think some light mascara is a must, even though it’s the only make-up I have other than my three options of lippy. 😦
OMG, I’m still shaking ! … I want my hormones sooooo much, and I’ll be devastated if I don’t get them this time. 😦
I also need to re-read a lot of the blog posts from other Trans women that I’ve seen lately and make notes about the leverages you’ve all used to help me convince the powers that be that I really am what I say I am. I know I need to “be myself”, but a few extra bullets in the gun never did any harm. 😉
I’m getting all muddled… “Breathe, Tishy girl, breathe !”