Archive | April 2018

18 months later …

… and it’s time to go and see my hairdresser again.

Yes, having grown my hair gradually for a couple of years since the last short, male cut I had I’ve now gone 18 months without anything being done to it.

I called in to see Mel the other day, explain the situation and make an appointment, so at least she’s prepared.

Right now I don’t know if she going to suggest an all over #2 so that my wigs go on easier, just an ends trim and a partial shortening at the sides, or whether she can come up with something which will allow me to go out femme without a wig. So I’ll be rather nervous this afternoon.

I’ve been letting it grow because I would love to have a long, straight ponytail, but it’s taking for ever and my hair does have a natural waviness to it as well. I wear a ponytail now, but it’s only just past the top of my shoulders and is “bulbous”. 😦

So, we shall see. But I know I’m going to enjoy the experience no matter what, as long as Mel doesn’t suggest THIS! …

Double standards and gagging orders – Part deux

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You know what?  I really can’t be bothered to make a case in my own defence.

While I was enjoying a coffee out with a friend of mine earlier and we were clucking away like the couple of old hens we are it crossed my mind that I really don’t need all the angst and emotional upheaval that’s been going on in my life lately.

All I need is to be ME.

Being ME is enjoyable. Being ME is relaxing. Being ME is less stressful than worrying about what other people think of me. Being ME is healthy!!!

So, to hell with the past!  This girl is only looking forward and upwards, and watch out because she’s a handful !!! 😀

Hope everyone has as good a day as I’ve had. 🙂

Now get those hips a-moving because for all of you and for me “The Only Way is UP!”

Community work award nomination

I’m very proud to announce that the community group I help to run, Transgender Fife, has just been nominated for an award in the category “Equality and Diversity Award” in this years’ Fife Voluntary Actions Awards.
This is an incredible achievement for us in such a short time, and reflects both the dedication and hard work that is put in to the group, and the support we all give each other and those around us.
If I can ever stop blushing I’ll keep you updated as to whether or not we get short-listed.

Animal Definitions #317

So the conversation with my friend K went like this …
Me: you know, last night I went out into the garden, in tears, and just sat on the bench crying … wifey came out to put some plants in, walked right by me without a word, totally ignored me
K: Wow  D:
Me: after a few minutes I went back in, went to bed, still crying when she came back in – nothing !! .. totally ignored me all night
f*cking bitch
K:  Yeah, holy shit
Me: what kind of animal behaves like that ?
K: A cat.

Lay on the virtual couch and tell me about it

Time for some self-therapy.

I crave dopamine!! I always have.

Just recently I’ve been fortunate enough to have been producing more than my fair share of it as I watch events unfold around me. But, this has a down side too. The sudden, comparatively huge rush of it compared to my normally dull existence has seen me lose some of my inhibitions as far as expressing my inner thoughts, to a point where I think I’m overstepping the line and need to rein myself in.

Last night I did some deep thinking about this and I was starting to see what is happening and, more importantly, the reason why.

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I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world

I’m not going to state publicly what it was I witnessed today, (those involved know), but for just a few moments my eyes fell upon the most heartwarming sight I’ve seen in a very long time.

I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world, and fool enough to think that’s what I’ll find, if not for myself then for others. But wouldn’t it be wonderful to be around at the start of a very special journey?

Thank you, universe, for showing me that sometimes it’s the simple things in life that mean so much.

Add “Age envy” to “Trans envy” and head for the Prozac

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No names, no pack drill here, but lately things have been getting really knotted up in my head.

The situation is this.

I know a certain two trans* individuals, (not those pictured above), both in their 20’s and both beautiful people visually and personality-wise. It would be fair to say that I get floods of Trans Envy every time I see them due to the fact that they both pass particularly well. One is very feminine gender fluid, the other is transfemale.

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